Small Towns and Big Dreams

Lately I've been stressed about money, as most people are. I've been worried about how can we continue to afford our house when I don't have the job that I planned on having (teaching - making almost double what I do now), and when we want to start to have kids, and I'll be on maternity leave making even less money. And sure we could tough it out for a year, but then we'd have to start paying for child care. I love our neighbourhood, but I don't love the idea of someone else raising my non-exisitent children. I don't think that God made women to carry life inside of them for 9 months, give birth to them, and then give them to someone else for the majority of the day. I struggle with the idea of not working (afterall I've gone to university for 6 years and obtained 2 degrees). But I struggle even more with the idea of not teaching my own children. Homeschooling has been on my heart lately too (I'll save that for another post). So, I find myself asking, what life do I want my children to have? I feel a calling to a more rural, simplistic lifestyle. I smaller home, a lot more land, fewer power lines, less noise, and a more peaceful, old-fashioned, way of living, where I can be more in-tune with my God, and what he has in store for me and my family. Hmmm... lots of prayers about this..