It was a great day filled with time together as a family out in nature in our forest. It was a day filled with time to feel the big emotions and let them out. Tears, anger, fear, and a whole lot of love.
Strength has been the theme of the day. Lochlan lost so much physical strength while in Halifax that we are now helping him rebuild what he lost. And with the physical strength comes emotional strength and a growth in confidence. Today’s big win was he started to walk around our main floor without assistance today— from couch to table to bathroom etc all on his own.
He talked about some of his big feelings and thoughts with us today. It’s heartbreaking to hear, but being able to discuss it all with him and help him see how strong he is to push through has been good for us all. When he’s off the steroids we will definitely get him the emotional/mental support he deserves to help heal.
It always was a day for his brother Luke to feel some big emotions too. Navigating life with a brother with cancer isn’t easy and Luke has been so strong through it all so far. Add in adolescent hormones and he’s got to dig to find his own centre and strength.
And then there’s Mitch and I… leaning on each other and helping support our boys together has required a completely different kind of strength as a couple that we never could have dreamed up for ourselves. I am so thankful to have him not just as my husband, and dad to my boys, but my best friend too.
Tonight when I asked Lochlan what is one happy thing in his day he said, “To be able to love.” Then went on to explain he had the gift of today to love his family and his home and his life.
Just a little over a week left of this first phase of treatment. Tomorrow we go for chemo at the local hospital in the morning, so I’m sure it’ll be a quiet afternoon of rest and family time. One step at a time.
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