Today was a day filled with waiting for his Lumbar Puncture. He had to fast and was on a waitlist for the OR so we couldn’t go anywhere or do anything. His little mind was, understandably, worried and stressed about it so he wasn’t in much of a mood for talking or playing anything so our day was filled with watching tv to keep him distracted.
Finally, shortly after lunch, it was go time. He was so nervous his whole body started to shake uncontrollably. But once we got down to the OR he recognized the anesthesiologist and the oncologist doing his procedure and they let me go in with him until he got sleepy, and of course he settled right down.
Those 20 minutes of waiting were torture for this momma, but thankfully all went so smoothly and he didn’t even have to go to recovery. He woke up in the OR and they brought him directly back to me and it was as if his whole little spirit was lighter— the fear was gone, and a little almost-happiness seeped through.
Then it was an afternoon of resting and waiting. We didn’t get all the news back but they told us that they ran his fluid through the machine to count his cancer cells and the count was “very very low”. They still have to wait to see the results of viewing the fluid under the microscope but, for now, we’re celebrating the good chance that this will be a “low risk” severity of leukaemia. If indeed that is the case, it means a little gentler treatment plan so I’ll be saying lots of prayers that this is the case.
This has all been the hardest thing I’ve ever done as a mom. Watching my baby be scared, be exhausted, be overwhelmed, be in pain, & be accepting of such a horrible thing has broken my heart in ways I didn’t even think possible, and sadly this is only the beginning. But I can truly say, without a shadow of a doubt, that the prayers, the love, the encouragement, and the countless messages of support have been what have kept us going and have uplifted in ways I never would have dreamt of. I can feel the power of it all, and I cannot thank you all enough for everything. It continues to astound, and overwhelm, and amaze me. I have no words, truly, to explain how much it means to me and my family ❤️🙏❤️
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